Thursday, October 8, 2009

~concurrent~

been a long time since i left this blog.. giving myself piles of reason for not blogging.. busy?? perhaps i was... outings outings n outings.. which dug a huge hole in my pocket.. dried up.. came back to pj.. but was very very disappointed.. router is now in koma i guess.. which mean v need to rotate to on9 again.. so much of mixed feelings each time i'm back in pj.. suprisingly.. to some1 who always say i sleep like a pig in bus.. today i did not.. wahaha.. clean my lil room.. bout 3 hours of wiping, mopping, rubbing, cleaning n washing.. yet my floor still occupied by luggage..

i feel abit regret for not comin back tomoro morning.. cos at least in penang i can hug lucky n wi fi anywhere i like.. life seems to be lifeless when i'm not connected to the net.. at this moment.. i feel sad that hero did not come back wif me.. well so do kigo wong.. but at least purple white checkers is wif me.. accompanying me in my lil room as always...

so much of feelings lately.. angry, disappointed, regret, happy, touched, dis-satisfactions, excited.. i have it all... to certain extend i really hate to help jus any1 right now.. i hate promises... please dun promise me anything nor ask me to promise anything.. get the hack off my sight.. besides that helping ppl dun seems right anymore.. ppl will jus take u for granted.. this apply to the volunteery work i did 2 weeks ago which v did not appreciated by ppl around but was ordered to do this n dat.. carry the most oily n heavy kuih kak in the world.. and lastly most important.. they din even say the word "thank you".. no next time to volunteer for any chinese society stuff cos i've gone thru it a few times.. the outcome is still the same.. disappointing..

my emotion gets tighter everytime i cannot on9 all the time i like.. its like rotating the line.. yeah i feel much very pathetic but still v hv to do so.. y cant the router let me stay happily for a few more months.. oh yeah tv is now not even a radio.. i got a bad feeling of all these negative incidents.. gosh feel like running away again... where shud i go.?? emotion at this moment is very weak.. yeah the swinging mood is back.. i'm not having PMS cos just had it last week.. i jus dun like the feeling being stop from doin wat i wan and not getting wat i wan.. erm wat am i writing here.. zzz.. things been floating n surrounding.. the bad n the good.. one more week for me to noon nap.. n there i go.. having everyday life walking to utar.. rush assignments and emo as usual..

thinking of the lil pups.. there's only one word to describe my feeling.. **pissed**.. oh well god bless the puppies pls..
i guess i shud post the pups pic here..
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lil goldie

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every stretch makes a few inches

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the yin n yang

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yaya n her babies

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i feel>>T__T.. sigh *personal feeling*

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the 5 of them.. i jus cant snap a nice 1 as they keep moving away

dear puppies.. may god bless u and may u lead a happy life like ur parents did.. remember me.. i love u...

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anyway still feels damn mm song.. thats all.. bye..

the line is now officially chopped..

4 comments:

ivy said...

SOooo cute.. d puppies!

Just enjoy ur study life when you still have the chance... dun think too much of working life.. it is not ur time to think bout it yet :P

cmei said...

i feel like dun wan2 think.. but i cant stop thinking bout it.. lol..

puppies r cute... sigh

ivy said...

Then dun think for now...

him and her said...

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! so the cute de lo!!!! i very like the baby...